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                  Its so many people in this world but its no one that's alike we are all different. We all handle things differently like worrying, anxiety, can't let things go, always thinking negative, and always trying to make things right when its not even your battle. A lot of these things can and will take a toll on you mentally, physically, and spiritually. I can't lie I'm the type that when something is bothering me I hold it in and I have done this so much in my life that it was becoming my life, it was taking over my mind, and doing this I would find myself  breaking down, stressing, can't sleep, regret this or that or whatever and it wasn't even my battle to begin with. I'm doing all of these things losing time out of my own life, and things I should be more concern about.  Now that I'm getting older and have made and still making some changes in my life this one thing I'm sure of that I want to put behind yes I want an...

      I grew up with my grandmother at a very young age and was taken from my mother at a young age. During that transition I didn't know much that was going on but I knew I didn't see my mother like I should and that basically my grandmother was my mother now because, she was feeding me, dressing me, doing all the things a mother should be doing for her daughter. So, basically  I was missing my mother love that had to be replace with my grandmother love. I know my mom love me but at the time it was just how my story had to play out in my life, God had a plan for me.  I tend to think I'm a daddy's girl although I didn't grow up with my dad as a daughter should had but we always seem to of had this bond between us. Growing up I started to  like the same sex having to deal with its not right , its a faze in your, you going to hell, and being confuse in life. I left home at an early age to be out on  my own working since I was in eleven grade.  Seem ...

     Easy said than done uh.....So, many people can tell you to stop worrying, you shouldn't worry, and again easy said than done.  I got to reading about worrying and  worrying can be a strong hold something that can keep you hostage in your own mind and keep you from God and serving him whole heartily and trusting him, and can keep you stuck and can't  move forward. I been there still its a working process, but I know God will bring me through.. But I'm reading when its a strong hold in your life it becomes your life. There are no limits of worrying some people cope with worrying in different ways, going to bed early, not sleeping, and etc.,,, I done all of these things and it don't get you know where but just make you more crazy inside. Matthew 6:25,31-34  Jesus stated 3x Don't Worry!!! The Greek word use for "worry" is the concept of being strangled or choked. It leaves you frustrated when we ought to be Free...       I wonder why d...

   Something came across my mind and it was about my grandmother's. I have one grandmother living and one grandmother that is deceased. The grandmother that is deceased raised me from the age of five years old until I was grown. I know they say things happen for a reason, people are in your life for a season, for a reason, and you have to know when that person done fulfilled their part in your story. I wouldn't change nothing about our time together and I can only grow from our time together. People often say they to busy for this and that but I know people make time for the ones they want to make time for, and how I know because I was one of those people. I could of called more, and made more  time for you once I really got out and on my own, but you live and you learn. What count the most is I was there when it matter most although it was sad to see you go I know you knew the lord and grateful you took me to church and taught me about God. What I took from this experien...

     I seen a post on IG(Instagram) There's a time to be selfless and there's a time to be selfish. That's a question I never thought of...I battle with being selfless. So, when I woke up that morning and seen that post it really made me think because I never thought about selfless. I looked up both words Selfless means concerned more with the needs and wishes of others than with one's own; and Selfish is of a persons, action, or motive lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's personal profit or pleasure. I have been in selfless mode for a long time because I really care about the needs and wishes of everyone else besides my own. Its a good character to have at times but not all the time, and after while I learn to step it back to be a little selfish at times but I really don't like using that word selfish. I rather use growing up being balance with yourself. For example; someone ask you for money you say yes first time, second time, and th...

     The struggle is part of the process to struggle will show you how  to really appreciate what God have done in your life. I do believe that every struggle I myself and you have went through was necessary to get to the next level. Every struggle have  a story, lesson, and something to be grateful for rather if it bring pain or not, and whatever it was God intended that for his glory because he is going to bring something out of you that is beyond your understanding but we have to keep fighting to be on God side. Myself for example been through some stuff in my life I was ready to give up so many times but God never let me. How I know because I'm still here and haven't lost my mind yet. lol... Even after so many times I went left and did my own thing God was still there see he will let you do you for awhile but if you truly belong to him you will come back to him and time after time I came back to God because you tired after while, and I realize God is my onl...