This Is My Exodus

                  Its so many people in this world but its no one that's alike we are all different. We all handle things differently like worrying, anxiety, can't let things go, always thinking negative, and always trying to make things right when its not even your battle. A lot of these things can and will take a toll on you mentally, physically, and spiritually. I can't lie I'm the type that when something is bothering me I hold it in and I have done this so much in my life that it was becoming my life, it was taking over my mind, and doing this I would find myself  breaking down, stressing, can't sleep, regret this or that or whatever and it wasn't even my battle to begin with. I'm doing all of these things losing time out of my own life, and things I should be more concern about.  Now that I'm getting older and have made and still making some changes in my life this one thing I'm sure of that I want to put behind yes I want and need to speak out more and its good to get things off your chest sometimes it will be in your favor and often it will not but I feel like  long as you got it off your chest you done your part. A lot of times to we need to pray and let God handle the situation. But you going to go through some things in your  life that's going to  help you get through and teach you. I'm finding myself everyday and fighting with my mind to become a better person, to change my evil ways, to be a more positive person, and most of all trust and depend on God and when I pray to leave my problems, concerns, worries, and whatever that is not my problem. Again I'm 32 years old and still battling with this when its so easy to leave your problems with God because its not your battle and even if its your battle and we struggling with it ourselves we have to learn to leave it with God. This is the only way because I'm realizing all you do is hurt yourself this I know for I been doing this for a long time so, God is the only way. I don't know why I myself and others we just make it so hard when its so easy, but I'm fighting everyday now to give  it to God and leave it, I'm fighting my past, fighting to stop worrying, anxiety, and etc....

                I been going through some things lately and its like when I come to grips and try to be okay, and positive with things it seem like something just pull me back to that same depressing  place where I was before. But, what made me write this I came across this blog title "Hold your Peace", and let God fight for you and this is referring to exodus 14 . I was reading it over and over the blog, read the bible verse , and even went to work and talk with as co worker about it  before it hit me till I realize what was going on.  A lot, of people say this to let God fight your battles, leave it at the altar, and etc its so easy to say this and yet again for myself and others it is so hard to do and  we bring it right  back with us.                      In Exodus 14 1-8 it says, " And the Lord spake unto Moses, saying, Speak unto the children of Israel, that they turn and encamp before Pi-ha-hi-roth, between Migdol and the sea, over agaist Ba-al-ze-phon: before it shall ye encamp by the sea. For Phar-aoh will say of the children of Israel, They are entangled in the land, the wilderness hath shut them in. And I will harden Phar-aoh's heart, that he shall follow after them; and I will be honored upon Pharaoh, and upon all his host; that the Egyptians may know that I am the Lord. And they did so. And it was told the king of Egypt that the people fled; and the heart of Phar-aoh and of his servants was turned against the people, and they said Why have we done this, that we have let Israel go from serving us? And he made ready his chariot, and took his people with him; And he took six hundred chosen chariots, and all the chariots of Egypt, and captains over every one of them. And the Lord hardened the heart of Phar-aoh king of Egypt, and he pursued after the children of Israel; and the children of Israel went out with an high hand. The blogger I think her name was Ash  then went on to say that God intentionally hardened Pharaoh's heart so he would chase the Israelites , my opinion is that God will intentionally let things happen to you to be chase by your enemies which your enemies can be people, worrying, anxiety, can't let things go, but your worst enemy is your MIND. Again, God will let us be chase for his glory because he already know who want to change, and  who will not change. But we have to do the fighting if we want to change for his glory to be revealed in our lives. So, lately I have been chase with a situation that was basically taken  over my life . I will pray and pray about this situation calling myself leaving it  with God and in time I would start to feel better about it and just go with the flow of things, try to smile, reach out, and then other days I just wanted to really go off and be like what is going on. A lot in my life has happen I know I have ask God and I talked with my grandmother and was like why is this happening to me is it a reason why certain people bring stress to you, or situations come up and bring stress to our lives. I just sit and think some time because I know I want to make a change in my life and I'm really searching for God more than every now.  I feel I must be doing something right because often I just keep getting chase by certain situations, stress, and I'm fighting my mind to do the right things. I also like what this blogger had said "how often we blame God for what the enemy is doing, and not realizing that sometimes its God using it to reveal his glory in our lives and that everything isn't of demons or evil spirit, everything isn't the devil per say." God always have a plan and its always big to big  for us to comprehend or see at the time, because God knows us and believe in what or  who we will become even if we don't believe in our selves or don't see it yet. I'm so thankful that I came across this blog because Ash have some good points because I often try and try to change spiritual wise and at times I just down  myself but knowing everything takes time just keep doing what you doing and trust in God in due time everything that I'm going, and you going through God's plans will be revealed in us  and people will know who God is.  From this day forward  I will continue to fight to get to where I need to be spiritually, and  I will leave it with God.  This is my Exodus....

Please go and read google@ Hold your peace: A guide explaining how to hold your peace& let the Lord fight for you daily. Exodus 14;1-18

Song to inspire you@ (Deliver ME) this is my exodus by: donald lawrence